back to school

blogging from my uni, today's just my second day back in uni and i'm already feeling tired. i know i say this everytime we start a new semester but the fact is that it is getting worse with each passing semester - i've lost the zest to continue studying.
somehow, studying here doesn't seem as interesting as it used to be during my first semester. maybe because that's all i've been doing for the past 3 years - studying. although the subjects get tougher with each passing year, the surrounding gets more cramped as well.
someone told me it's because of the lack of recognition here. it doesn't matter if u score an A or a D, no one gives a damn. personally, i dun care bout that although i have to admit sometimes it disappoints me. all this while i use this speech instead, "you should be studying for yourself, your future. getting an A should give you all the satisfaction any reward will give... blablabla...", ok... i admit it sounds crappy but that's the best i can come up with.
my main prob - i still dun feel at home here. especially when i'm alone. ah... such a simple word but yet so, so very cold. alone. after 3 years in this uni, sometimes i still find myself sitting alone, waiting for time to flash by but as it always is, the seconds ticked by ever so slowly. it's just frustrating.
i dun think of the past anymore. not as much as i used to anyway. but not thinking of the past doesn't make the present any better as well... damn...
anyway, i guess i'll stop here...i just needed to let some steam out. i'm not complaining bout my life and i definitely do appreciate my life as it is. and i'm sure i'll start enjoying my studies again... i just dunno when...

ps: i expected to be bombarded for my thoughts on the previous blog but i guess i was wrong...

nude lady doing ear-squats

i'm sure everyone knows bout this incident by now. it has been widely spread and criticized since the day the video was captured. my personal opinion? it has been blown out of proportion and i think all opinions heard on the media is ill-judged. in simpler language - never listen to just one side of the story. i mean, this incident was reported by an mp and not even by the lady involved.
i have seen the video and certain things have caught my attention. it has been said that this lady is abused and her rights were violated. so before i watched the clip, i assumed the lady would look frightened, ashamed, lost and etc. but i was surprised to see that she was calm and composed.
i'm not writing this blog to judge anyone. i'm not here to say that what the police did was wrong/right. all i'm saying is that there is always two sides to a story. and we haven't even heard one side of it yet. who is that lady? what crimes have she committed? no one knows. as for the police, i'm sure they could come up with a pretty good explanation of the incident although i'm not sure if it will be accepted by the public.
this reminds me of the days when i was in vi. in the scout group that i was involved in, there is this orientation that all members had to go through at the end of form 3 - from boy scouts to seniors. for us, that orientation is a necessity. a tradition that must be upheld. although some seniors have misused their authority and turned the orientation into their own sick means to torture others, this orientation is nevertheless an important essence in the tradition of our scout troop. i can understand that because i was part of the troop. but good luck explaining it to others. outsiders would never understand the need for such a tradition.
i'm getting a little bit off-tracked here. anyway, all i wanna say is that the manner in which the police handle criminals should be left to the police to decide. that's why we shouldn't turn to crime right? as long as you don't do anything wrong, you wouldn't be in custody and your rights wouldn't be violated. you expect to be a criminal and still have your rights defended/ protected? no. the police should have the upper hand in this.

ps: however, i have to add that getting caught like that - allowing someone the opportunity to record the whole incident on video is just plain stupid. at least have the brains to do it somewhere no eyes can see.

emily rose

i watched emily rose the other day with ly and i think it's a show worth mentioning. especially now that it's 3 am... hehehe... those who have watched it should know wat i mean...
i dun find the show really scary like those old freddy kruger (21st elm street and etc) horror films but the images in the movie is somehow really disturbing. it scared ly enough all right... =)
comparing it with all the horror flicks shown lately, this definitely stands out. the acting is pretty outstanding and the story does make you wonder. are you a true believer and strong to your faith? and if you do not believe in gods, well, watch the movie and decide...
to those who have watched it - "one two three four five SIX!"
muahahahaha...

good and bad...

plenty has happened since i last posted.
sat (19/11) - man utd says goodbye to one of the best players to have ever played for the club. roy keane, the epitome of everything man utd stands for. he is the old school midfielder which is a rare species these days. hard tackling, no-nonsense is his game. at his prime, he was a box-to-box player who feared no one and even at his age now, he does not shirk from a tackle. a true leader and a fighter. he will be missed. and let us remember him for all that he has done for the club.
sun (20/11) - on a positive note, i went to watch the A1 GP in the afternoon and it was a hell lot of fun! it is no match for F1 for sure but the race is more exciting in A1 and with the right kinda publicity, it will surely be one of the best race series to come. i mention publicity because sadly, the turnout was dismal. i dun think the grandstand was even filled to 30% of its capacity.
as for alex yoong's performance, he came in 5th and that's not a bad try considering team malaysia beat team usa, japan and great britain - teams from countries that are technologically more advanced compared to malaysia. but you know wat's the best part of it all? the support! oh yeah, we got behind alex and we were loud and clear about it! when he came into the pits after the race, the cheers of “malaysia boleh!” rang out as though he has just won the race... and the feeling of unity among fellow malaysians was overwhelming... =)
on the other hand, after returning home from sepang, i went for a game of futsal with my friends. after a really long break from the game, this would be only my 2nd game after last weekend. and after playing for bout 30 minutes, i had a collision and as i fell on my sprained ankle, i heard 3 loud "cracks". i dunno how to explain that noise but it was definitely followed by pain! damn, it's been a while since i felt that amount of pain. i retired from the game and i had difficulty walking after that.
mon(21/11) - when i woke up, there was a sudden rush of pain in my leg which almost brought tears. so i decided to pay a visit to the chinese doctor. after 2 hours of waiting, it was finally my turn but the moment he touched my ankle, i had no idea why i even bothered waiting. it hurts like hell! according to him, my ankle was out of position. dislocated i guess. and after massaging for bout 20 minutes and assuring me that the pain was all over, he pulled a stunt which i will not forget for some time. i dunno wat he did but he twisted and pulled my ankle to get it back into position. i thought i was gonna pass out. damn. although at the moment, my ankle actually does feel much better, i still dun feel thankful yet. maybe i'll thank him later when i can forget the pain.
and things just go from bad to worse. when i checked my e-mail later that night, i realized that the philips young inventor's challenge result was out. yup. you guessed it. i wasn't in. but wat pissed me out was the fact that out of the 15 semi-finalists, 12 came from the same uni. i dun wanna mention names here but something doesn't feel right. i dunno. after so many tries in all the engineering comp, all this failure is starting to make me feel kinda small. am i no good at all? damn once more.

ps: i actually got my result for last semester during the past couple of days too but i forgot when. it's better than i expected but recent events have dampened my mood to celebrate.

A1... here i come! =P

got myself a couple of the A1 GP grandstand tickets today from alex yoong through uniten... kinda excited although it is a lower league race compared to F1. but wat the heck, malaysia's in it! so, alex, do the nation proud.

ps: i'm gonna bring the jalur gemilang along to sepang. yeah! malaysia boleh! =)

platonic relationship - an impossible task?

this issue has always been talked about, studies and psychological review has been done and it even appeared in newspaper columns several times over the past year. the million dollar ques - can't a guy and a gal have a normal friendship without getting emotionally involved?

why is it that whenever a guy and gal develops a close friendship, rumors must spread about their "relationship"? can't they just be frens?

yeah, i know bout the lust and sexual desire argument. but come on. dun tell me everytime a guy gets close to a gal, it will send his hormones raging?

anyway, i think that it is possible for a guy and a gal to remain frens, close frens without getting emotionally/ sexually involved. i really do believe that.

...

went out with my mum yest. went to ikea and to mid valley after that. actually went outlooking for furniture to refurbish my room but couldn't find any that really suited my room/ needs so just ended up strolling around. as i settled down for lunch with my mum, i realized 2 things.

1 - ppl these days dun seem to be working. it was a monday evening (bout 3 or 4) and mid valley was basically crowded with adults/ teenagers/ kids. is there a money printing plant somewhere that i dun know about?

2 - this is more emotional. i saw a few groups of teenage friends hanging out, having a good laugh and i realized it's been a while since i did that with my frens. come to think of it, there's not many frens which i could just call up for a movie or a drink when i want to. most of the 'frens' i know these days are 'study based'. in other words, we meet in class and that's where our friendship starts and ends. maybe it's me being antisocial. but still, i really miss those times when i went out with my frens for movies, drinks, a game of pool, the rare bowling session and talk bout everything under the sky (mostly crap, but still fun)...

at times, i know we've gotta move on and let the past remain in the past. but sometimes i can't help wondering - where has it all gone wrong? since when fun was replaced by boredom. since when i turned from a carefree teenager into a young adult with responsibilities?

these days, i talk more through my comp and sms. even phone conversation has been slashed down, not to mention face to face conversation. i tell you, technology and expectation is killing social life. slowly but surely.

i miss the old days. maybe it's time to do something bout it. i'll start by sending a couple of mails to some of my closest frens whom i haven't meet in a long time.

ps: i've been in a crappy mood the whole day. no idea why.

back again!

it feels like i've been away for months! i've been wanting to blog but i just couldn't find the time/opportunity till now. anyway, a quick update - another semester has come and gone. my finals actually ended on the 26th last month. after the finals, i had a phillips competition proposal to finish up. the results should be out in about two weeks so i won't say much bout it for now.
that was promptly followed by a family vacation to penang (30/10-3/11). that holiday was relaxing and although i've been to penang almost every year, i'd say that was probably the best vacation i've had with my family there. i'll have some pics posted soon.
once i was back in kl, i started working on some small projects to fill my time and that was when my comp decided to call in sick. damn. life without my pc does prove to be torrid. i just got my pc back yest and now life is back to the way it's supposed to be (ok, i'm exaggerating - sue me). so, that kinda covers all that happened in the past 2 weeks. for the details on my "mini" project, i'll post it another day. hopefully it'll be completed enough fro me to post some pics too... just hope i dun get to lazy to type.
right now, i just wanna say something (it's rather outdated but i dun care!) - chelsea, that's how football is played! muahahaha... dun feel so special anymore mourinho? you've got your billions but u can't beat a team consisting of mainly teenagers. and this is a man utd which is considered by far the weakest in comparison to the past teams which ruled the EPL. i've gotta admit that feels so good. although man utd did not display any scintillating form, they did just enough to beat chelsea. a team which many claimed to be invincible in the EPL. however, i've still got my foot on the ground. although man utd did beat chelsea, i'll be the first to admit, chelsea still has the better team. but i dun think that chelsea will run away with the title this season. and i've got my fingers crossed that come may, it won't be chelsea sitting at the top of the table. =)

that's all for now. now that i'm back and since it's my holidays, i hope i'll start blogging more consistently. for these last 2 weeks of my holidays at least.